Truth be told in my state of mind right now I don't know how I could perform in the corporate world. There's something else I need to experience and learn before I go back out there. Athena is a person with depth and feeling - two things which are not needed in the workplace. My field is heartless and unyielding. It looks to protect paper profits. It works in the best interest of only a selected few. People are a commodity - a cost, an asset... ultimately expendable. Never mind the toilet-like state of the economy and people applying for government cheese at an all-time high (I myself am one of those people) - to watch those privileged few prosper of the backs of the masses irks me.
So did I apply? Curiously, yes. I sent my CV a few minutes ago. I gotta consider all avenues if Steve's cheddar doesn't pan out. If it does, I will sit on it until it runs out. Why not? This process of self-actualization isn't over for me yet. I was meant to be in this place for a reason. I needed time to really look inside my self to find out where I am going. Since I stopped living my life for others I've made progress.
Now this is trippy - I just glanced out the window and there was a guy walking past with two backpacks - the kind you take on a backpacking trip. Was that a sign to say this journey is not over? I believe so. Sometimes I find myself not fully enjoying this process... like I want it to hurry up and finish so I can move on to something else. I need to enjoy every moment. I need to stop worrying about the future and concentrate on the present moment.
Having said that, I'll no longer tell people that I don't know what to do with my life. I know. I've always known. I'm doing it right now. Writing. Expressing thoughts to the world. I want to be an artist who uses words as her medium. Athena Titanides ain't no fool.
Here's the fun part - financing the dream.
