In my last post, I wrote about an opportunity that has presented itself to me. Without divulging too much information, I have begun work on it. Yet, I have to wonder why I'm doing it. To answer my own question, I believe I've had this need my whole life to prove myself - prove I'm not thick or a failure. Maybe there's this standard of Athena that I feel like I'm not living up to.
Sometimes I do feel like I haven't accomplished anything in my life. I went to school, had a string of useless jobs and now here I am. Perhaps I need to prove to myself first & foremost that I'm not just anyone. I can do things. I learn quickly. Plus I need to throw myself headfirst into something... not just anything but something I can put my name on.
Plus there's the money issue. I know if I want my dreams to come true I have the power to make it happen. Daunting, isn't it? I am fearful of the possibilities and outcomes. I admit I fear the unknown. What if I fail again? It could very well be that I won't. Down with complacency!
Athena can do anything. Athena just needs to keep telling herself that.
