Wednesday, August 19, 2009

let's hear it for the boy

Is it wrong that I have a boyfriend instead of a job? Yes, you read correctly. I am off the market. Now I'm wondering when our anniversary is going to be... is it our first date? The day we had the final status check? The first time we made toast? I really don't know. Either way, I'm really happy. Ethan is a great catch. He actually understands me and he supports me. Props to Steve Harvey's book Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man - every woman needs to read this book. Hands down this book is the best dating reference out there because it makes the most sense.

In other news, my job search has taken an interesting turn. A few weeks ago I had to write 4 (count'em - four!?) aptitude tests for a job that paid less than 30K. I've tried talking to my friends about this and the general consensus is that I 'should' (therapist told me that the word 'should' is a bad one) get a meantime job until I find a better one. Grrr. That 30K rubbish was a meantime job for Chrissakes! I still haven't heard from them and that was almost a month ago. Just this past Monday I went for an interview for another meantime job... 20 minutes in they tell me that I would be doing a disservice to myself in an admin assistant role. They also told me to pursue HR roles in multinationals and not to settle for anything less.

Why is this such a difficult thing for everyone to understand? I will not settle. End of. Sure, it's not cool being on the dole however I'd rather do that then hop from job to job to job. I did enough of that in Toronto. Sometimes I even wonder how I can get away with having 8 jobs in 7 years. I'd much rather take time and find a good fit for me where I can stay there and experience this crazy thing called stability. I took a meantime job once and I felt like utter crap - I had a job to pay the bills and nothing else. I couldn't really do anything fun like go on holiday because all my money went to pay bills. I know that is not how I envisioned my life when I finished school; I wanted a great career and an even better quality of life. I still want that almost a decade later. On pain of death I will not yield!

Monday, August 10, 2009


I've been out of work for six months now and I tell you, today is the most bored I've felt since.

There are things I could be doing - unpacking boxes that have yet to be touched since I've moved here; tons of old documents need to be shredded however I simply don't feel like it. I don't feel like doing anything. Why is it that doing nothing can make me so blasted tired? I nap at least an hour per day? Odd.

To date, I've sent out 55 resumes. Does that sound like a lot? It sure f'n does. I've had 2 interviews with no success. According to the law of large numbers, if I keep up my all-out assault then something should pan out. I sure hope so because I'm actually going mad.

Bree is due in town this week. I may not be able to spend tons o' cash but it'll be nice to get out of the house for a bit.

On a brighter note, things are going along swimmingly with Ethan. I daresay we're moving in the right direction.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

irreversible change

I had to downsize my cable package a few days ago so now I subscribe to PBS. I used to watch it all the time as a kid! One day I was watching this show called Sid The Science Kid... I sat there quite fascinated, really - Sid was learning about how heat can change things into another form but he wanted to know if he could change them back. His teacher said no, unfortunately - the process is called irreversible change.

Of course, my mind started to wonder about this concept. Irreversible change. Sid the Science Kid understands irreversible change to mean that if you cook apples over heat, you can make applesauce however you cannot turn the applesauce back into solid apples. What a concept!

Has irreversible change played a part in recent events? Could it be that this scientific concept be the underlying reason of all that's gone down? Each day I wake up and start anew... I guess it's good that I even wake up as I shudder to think about the alternative. I try to live for the Now yet I can't help but wonder about the future. Am I ever going to find a decent job? Any thoughts of teaching English are out the window for the time being as the school I was going to attend has apparently gone under. I have taken this development as a sign to say I was meant for something else - what I don't know.

A bit of soulsearching has revealed that I can go back into HR and feel good about it. I reminded myself that this ain't Toronto and people aren't as asinine here as they are back there. There are some pretty lucrative opportunities out there - I have every faith in myself that I can do any one of them. Guess it's up to the universe to determine which one it will be, right?