Every night I pray to a higher power to help me through this period in time. I hold my polar bear Bill close to my heart while I pray for clarity... purpose... a sign of things to come. I would love to know what the next chapter of this life holds for me yet I fear it. Every step I've taken has ended in sheer disaster - relationships, jobs, etc. Can I do anything right with the life I have? No wonder I have no idea what to do next for fear I'll blank it up.
I dream about a life where I can see the world. I dream about telling my story to the world. I dream about never depending on anyone for anything except love. I dream about actually being loved - unconditionally, unequivocally loved. Last night I went to sleep wondering what today would bring. Now I know every day is a wonder in itself.